The Joplin Tornado

In 2 days it will mark 5 years since the Joplin tornado . I’ll never forget it. I’ll never forget the helplessness as I looked at my children and pets in that closet and thinking what if they are taken from me and I survive. I couldn’t fight it,  bargain with it or run from it. I had to hold them and wait.  It was the most life changing moments. It’s when I knew this life is all that is guaranteed. No fantasy could snap me out of the depression that I am helpless and cannot control every danger my children  will face. It wasn’t until I found out I was pregnant with Allyson that the depression faded.  But there were very bleak moments,  and so many nights I couldn’t sleep.
Life has changed so much in 5 years. I wouldn’t recognize that person now. The struggles and climbing out of poverty have shaped me. I’m now a result of empathy.
I think survivors guilt is the hardest part. Once you are able to process that it’s not about who deserves or doesn’t deserve to live,  it takes on new light. 
Those first couple of months were hard.  I lost it in my own way that summer. I couldn’t sleep and sleeping pills didn’t help so I’d stay up for days. I had never picked up a circular saw,  but I started refurbishing old furniture I found or bought at thrift stores. I’d break it down and create something we needed or just anything I could turn it into. I still have the tables and shelves.  I painted murals on the walls.  I’d go until I could sleep.  And then one day I wasn’t ok but I was better. 
I saw humanity that summer.  I remember being in the emergency aide lines.  The tears,  strangers just walking up, embracing you and saying it’s OK to cry.  It was unlike anything I’d ever seen.
We’ve been lucky.  There were 160 on

that day that didn’t make it.  And I’ll say now,  yes there are atheists in fox holes. But after you climb out the perspective is different. Reality can change quickly. Fight for yourself and those unable to fight.  And appreciate the tangible.


The Five Stages of Grief


It’s like the 5 stages of grief. You know it’s happening. You watch the disease spread.
1.Denial.  As I watch widespread corruption and oppression in the election process.
2. Anger at the leaders and party members for actively participating or by inaction allowing it to happen and even being the apologist with really illogical excuses.
3. Bargaining. But it has no impact because they have screwed over the people for so long with no repercussions they don’t even hide the corruption now. They know partisan loyalty will insulate them. When we say we will take our votes in November,  they use their loyal pets to attack voters and make the victims of corruption the enemy. Much like the Republican party does to rape victims.  And then justify it.
4. Depression. When you realize,  Democrats aren’t a lot brighter than Republicans.  And that corruption is going to give the nomination to megalomaniac.
5. Acceptance. We’ll see you November. And we’ll be there with our millions of votes casting them for an Independent candidate that you cheated. The best and only ethical candidate in the race. #BernieOrBust #HillaryNeverHadMe

Again if you are wanting to blame someone,  remember we didn’t do anything wrong. We followed the rules and we’re met with widespread voter suppression and fraud. Contact Debbie Wasserman Schultz on Twitter @DWStweets
Hillary Clinton  @HillaryClinton
Lastly unlike,  unfollow and stop clicking and sharing media that has made this possible like @politico.
Sara Ivie
May 19, 2016

Wounded Knee, Last Stand

The Day We Fell Silent

The Resistence Ends

125 years ago marked the end of the resistance. The movement crushed by the sorrow of all that was gone. And then, silence for 80 years. History mentions little, and affirms what we knew, we didn’t matter. The final stages were being orchestrated to fully and completely assimilate the people of the first nations. Children taken from parents by force and indoctrinated into a foreign religion, a religion that had came and killed all the beauty of diverse and prosperous societies. We are told, if we accept the desert demigod Jesus, and follow the archaic, dogmatic and inconsistent rules of this maniacal god, we’ll be granted entrance into a socialist utopian kingdom when we die. The irony is that they came and destroyed the very utopia they wait to find in death.

“I did not know then how much was ended. When I look back now from this high hill of my old age, I can still see the butchered women and children lying heaped and scattered all along the crooked gulch as plain as when I saw them with eyes still young. And I can see that something else died there in the bloody mud, and was buried in the blizzard. A people’s dream died there. It was a beautiful dream . . . . the nation’s hoop is broken and scattered. There is no center any longer, and the sacred tree is dead. “

—- Black Elk

Four days after Christmas, with decorations still up at the Episcopalian mission on the Pine Ridge Reservation, 4 Sioux men and 47 children were brought in that had survived. Wounded, flesh torn by bullets and shrapnel, they were delivered to a place that displayed Peace on Earth. The final count is estimated between 300 and 350 dead. Bodies left in the snow where they had fallen. Later to be thrown into a mass grave. A final message that no, all lives do not matter.

The Ghost Dance

“There was no hope on earth, and God seemed to have forgotten us. Some said they saw the Son of God; others did not see him…The people did not know; they did not care. They snatched at the hope. They screamed like crazy men to Him for mercy. They caught at the promise they heard He had made. The White men were frightened and called for soldiers.”

Red Cloud

Settlers were fearful of Native American Spirituality. And Native Americans needed something, anything to grant some kind of hope.  Wovoka, a self proclaimed visionary, and who had vsions more Christian than native, proclaiming him the native Messiah  by many desperate Indian nations. Wovoka claimed while on the cusp of death he had visions of the destruction of the white settlers and a time of happiness for all past and present natives.  In a manner reminiscent of Christ, Wovoka preached non-violence, and most tribes abandoned their war-like ways in preparation for future happiness. But the movement was destined to be a part of the worst slaughter of modern times.

This is one of the reasons why I see the mixing of European religions and native spirituality as dangerous, deadly.  But a people with despair, no hope, they grasped onto any kind of hope.

The first census was of the Sioux was taken in 1886. Thereafter they were required to have a family name. One of the father’s names was usually taken by the other members of the family, and everyone was given a distinguishing white first name, such as John or Nancy. Some family names, in translation, were unsuitable, so the census takers renamed them with complete English names…1889 and 1890 were years of severe drought, and unlike the white farmers, Indians could not move away to better ground. The buffalo were being systematically wiped out by white hunters, and indeed were virtually gone before 1890. In February 1890, the Dakota Reservation was opened to homesteading by non-Indians, and now the Sioux were ready to turn to anything that would offer them the slightest hope of returning to their old way of life. They prayed desperately, and sought visions from Wakan-Tanka for guidance and deliverance…It was at this point that a Paiute Indian named Wovoka entered the scene…”

“Wovoka or “Jack Wilson,” who started the Ghost Dance was the prophet or messiah of the Ghost Dance to the Sioux. They practiced that religion prior the Massacre at Wounded Knee in 1890.

Sitting Bull had been recently assassinated, yet they chose to peacefully dance, believing their way of life, the buffalo, and the land would be returned to them. They chose dancing the Ghost Dance in winter snow over revenge. They stood earnestly by their convictions, even up until the moment that the soldiers started massacring them.

The Ghost Dancers believed their shirts were bullet proof, and that their way of life would be returned. To understand some of why they believed those things; one needs to understand what was believed about Wovoka.


In his early adulthood, Wovoka gained a reputation as a powerful shaman. He was adept at magic tricks. One trick he often performed was being shot with a shotgun, which may have been similar to the bullet catch trick. Reports of this trick may have convinced the Lakota that their “ghost shirts” could stop bullets.

Ghost Dance

Also, Wovoka was reported to have had the Stigmata, same as

Padre Pio about 30 years later.

I heard an elder talk about Wovoka having the Stigmata, as well as the intent behind the Ghost Dance. It was nothing but peaceful, though it was controversial to many who did not participate. It hasn’t been done since the 1973 Siege of Wounded Knee as far as I know.

Some say Wovoka’s Stigmata wounds were self-inflicted; some say his wounds were not.

I don’t know.

In addition, there is a lesser well-known fact about this history: a relationship between Wovoka’s philosophies, his instructions to the Ghost Dancers, and the words of Jesus Christ:

Paiute ~ Wovoka ~ Ghost Dancers

“Jesus is now upon the Earth,” he stated. But again, there is historic contradiction here- Wovoka is quoted as saying he was Christ and he wasn’t Christ. It would seem that either he excelled at playing to different audiences or was damned to being preserved by faulty historians.

Despite the later association of the Ghost Dance with the Wounded Knee Massacre and unrest on the Lakota reservations, Wovoka charged his followers:

 “Do not hurt anybody or do harm to anyone. You must not fight. Do not refuse to work for the whites and do not make any trouble with them.”

While the Ghost Dance is sometimes seen today as an expression of Indian militancy and the desire to preserve traditional ways, Wovoka’s pronouncements ironically bore the heavy mark of popular Christianity.

I disagree that last sentence, “Wovoka’s pronouncements ironically bore the heavy mark of popular Christianity.”


Vital parts of understanding the Wounded Knee Massacre of 1890 are preexisting conditions, Wovoka, and the Ghost Dance

Speaking only for myself, I will not entertain the idea of a god that quite obviously did not care for the Native Americans,  can be the source of salvation. I do not believe in the Abrahamic God, nor do I respect the theology. I respect everyone’s right to believe the theology, but don’t confuse this with respecting such archaic, dogmatic trash.

But I understand that loss of all hope can leave the oppressed desparate and vulverable to false visions of a Jewish savior for Indigenous Americans.

With AIM came a new era. A fight that has brought awareness, change, and unity across the tribes. Not all agree with their mission or tactics. For me it’s very clear that they have restored tradition and respect to lost ideas.

From AIM

“In 1970 Clyde Bellecourt of the American Indian Movement was invited as a sponsor from the Great Oglala Nation on the Pine Ridge Reservation to attend the Sun Dance. Clyde was excited about the invitation, and like most of us in the early years had read books such as Black Elk Speaks that relates the sacred rites of the Lakota Nation. Upon accepting the invitation, Clyde thought it would fulfill two purposes, one of course to be one of the sponsors, and two, to learn firsthand, the spiritual traditions of the Sun Dance, the purification ceremony, and the reasons for such ceremonies.

Clyde arrived on the Pine Ridge Reservation grounds where the Sun Dance was being held and he thought he had gone to the wrong place. There was a fair, a rodeo, and surrounding the arbor, there were fair rides, a ferris wheel, a merry-go-round, a tilt-a-whirl, and food stands. He asked someone, “where is the Sun Dance?” He was told, ‘Right here.’ He ran into Dennis Banks and Russell Means, who were both dancing, and one had a snow cone and the other had a fry bread burger, and Clyde expressed his disbelief. They told him that the Sun Dance turned into a powwow after the day was done, and the dancers could eat, drink, go home, be with their girlfriends, or wives, or boyfriends, or husbands. The sacred Sun Dance grounds turned into a social dance and anyone could dance powwow whether they were sober or not.

Russell Means and Dennis Banks told Clyde, “Wait until Sunday and see what happens then.” Clyde asked them about Sunday and they said that the Catholic priest arrives at noon to the Sun Dance arbor to serve communion.

The prime sponsors of the Sun Dance was the Catholic Church and the Bureau of Indian Affairs. The dancers were not allowed to pierce. They hitched a horse harness to the buffalo skull and the dancer was allowed to pull it like that.

Lehmann Brightman of United Native Americans out of California and Clyde could not believe what they were seeing and hearing. They told Dennis and Russell that this was not going to happen on their shift. Dennis and Russell pleaded with Clyde and Lehmann not to upset the dance because it would turn people against the American Indian Movement. They said to go and talk to Fools Crow. Clyde asked who Fools Crow was, and learned he was a chief of the Oglala Nation who had some responsibility with the Sun Dance. When they met with Chief Fools Crow he spoke only in Oglala Lakota and the interpreter was Severt Young Bear. They asked Fools Crow, “why are you allowing this to happen?’

Chief Fools Crow was given tobacco, but still had to have permission from the Catholic Church to have the Sun Dance. It was the same with the other ceremonies as well, not only on Pine Ridge, but every Indian Reservation, and Indian community. The peyote ceremonies became the Native American Church. These ceremonies had the Christian bible present. This is how the church controlled us, and made us weak. We were removed from our lands, and made more dependent with our every move.

Clyde informed Chief Fools Crow who they were, and told him about the great stories he read concerning the Lakota Nation, and the sacred ceremonies. Clyde told him what they must do to strengthen our communities and bring back the ceremonies to the people. At this time, Chief Fools Crow said there was nothing he could do, and told them to go and talk to the warriors. Clyde asked who they were, and Frank Fools Crow said, “the Sun Dancers.”

Lehmann Brightman and Clyde did talk to the Sun Dancers about the Church controlling them and the ceremonies, and they took a vote, and the warriors voted unanimously to take back the Sun Dance from the church.

On Sunday everyone from all of the communities on Pine Ridge came to see what would happen. Word spread quickly, and it turned out to be the largest crowd at a Sun Dance in recent memory at Pine Ridge. At noon the priest arrived with two altar boys and their bread and wine to offer communion, which would conclude the Sun Dance of the Great Oglala Nation. When Lehmann Brightman and Clyde entered the arbor, there were loud boo’s from the crowd and they started to throw whatever they had at them, food, trash, cups, bottles, etc. They informed the priest who was adorned in white Indian beaded vestments, that the dancers no long wanted him there, and that his days are now over. The priest asked Clyde, “Who are you?” Clyde told him who he was and that he represented the American Indian Movement, and introduced Lehmann Brightman as his brother from United Native Americans. The priest said, “I heard about you rabble-rousers.” Clyde said to the priest, “Father, please I am asking you to leave.” The priest said, “What if I don’t?” Clyde and Lehmann gently took the priest by each arm and escorted him out of the arbor to the boo’s and jeers of the crowd . By that time the police sirens could be heard, and Clyde and Lehmann were placed in the backseat of a squad car and were driven to the border of the reservation and were told to never come back.

Because of this action, in 1971, the following year, the American Indian Movement held its first Sun Dance on the Rosebud Reservation at Crow Dog’s Paradise. A Sun Dancer is committed for a lifetime. Clyde said that he has been a Sun Dancer for 40 years and now a Head Sun Dancer, and also a member of the Midewin Society.

Today, there are hundreds of Sun Dances, purification ceremonies, healing ceremonies, Midewin ceremonies every year. Most are conducted by recognized spiritual leaders, such as Rick Two Dogs, Warfield Moose, Richard Moves Camp, and others, but we also know there are those who exploit their own people’s traditions.”

Without the European religion that’s a warped middle eastern theology, interwoven into a bastardized spirituality,  AIM has brought back an awareness and link to traditions that reach back 2000 years.

“The Great Spirit raised both the white man and the Indian. I think he raised the Indian first. He raised me in this land, it belongs to me. The white man was raised over the great waters, and his land is over there.”

Red Cloud

Fear Based Voting

We’ve watched for decades how the GOP is able to get votes in the most impoverished areas with platforms that blame the poor and keep them poor. They use fear. Their main fear being guns and god.  I’ve wanted to slam my head into a wall repeatedly watching this cycle continue. All the while, I’m watching this happen with  the Democrats.  They’ve stopped even pretending to be progressive.  I  have watched the GOP clown show parade one idiot after another through our Senate and Congress, Governor and state level public offices,  and while we all focused on that circus,  the Democrats sold their souls to lobbyists.

Well the progressive party stopped progressing a couple decades ago. It didn’t start with the Clinton’s, but it was magnified and worsened by a large margin. A few examples….Travelgate, NAFTA,  appointing the first lady to head up health care reform, which she was not qualified to lead, repealing glass steagal,  privatized prisons, 3 strikes, welfare reform…. I could go on for pages, but I’ve made my point. These are not progress and set  us up for the housing crisis.

So how are we duped into voting for this trash? Well , corruption unmatched in the DNC is one way. But the most important way we need to recognize is that fear is being used on progressive voters. Rather than guns and god, it’s the Supreme Court nominations and Trump. It gets better though. Instead of widespread outcry from the base, they attack independents and democrats that have pledged to not vote for Hillary Clinton. After our registrations were mysteriously lost (my case, and I’d never missed a vote) votes purged, wide spread voter suppression and fraud, changing the rules to favor Hillary mid caucus in Nevada, exit polls that don’t match the count,  media hostility towards Sanders and the list goes on. After all of this we are told to vote blue no matter who…. worked out well for us so far. I do recall a blue, Nancy Pelosi leading the vote recently to sell us out to pharmacy companies, how progressive.  When we state we will not vote for someone that has disenfranchised us, we will not support the DNC that has made it clear they don’t care what we want and are downright hostile to Independents (many of which usually cast their vote for the Democrats) we’re then met with “A Trump presidency is on your head”. No, that’s a flawed logic. It’s on the DNC.

I’d also like to remind all the political half wits, Trump cannot do 95% of what he spews. Not without the House and Senate. However, what Clinton will do will have support because it’ll line their pockets and do what they want, put our soldiers all over the world killing for natural resources and dying for profit while the middle class becomes extinct.

I won’t vote for Hillary. I won’t accept your blame. If you’d like to blame someone, contact  Debbie Wasserman Shultz on twitter. Link provided.

Prosecute Politicians that Incite Mass Shootings

With the fall out of planned parenthood violence and vandalism in recent weeks, coupled with Fiorina and her think tank I’ve been pouring over the legalities, supreme court cases and decisions. Is she culpable legally? We know she is morally, having had the information the planned parenthood videos were a lie and illegally obtained, does she hold legal responsibility for the violence? The defamation and fraudulent statements made of planned parenthood with clear intent of harming the institution…. And she continues to defend the statements..
n. the act of making untrue statements about another which damages his/her reputation. If the defamatory statement is printed or broadcast over the media it is libel and, if only oral, it is slander. Public figures, including officeholders and candidates, have to show that the defamation was made with malicious intent and was not just fair comment. Damages for slander may be limited to actual (special) damages unless there is malice. Some statements such as an accusation of having committed a crime, having a feared disease or being unable to perform one’s occupation are called libel per se or slander per se and can more easily lead to large money awards in court and even punitive damage recovery by the person harmed. Most states provide for a demand for a printed retraction of defamation and only allow a lawsuit if there is no such admission of error

1975, in Weirum v. RKO General, Inc., the Supreme Court of California held that a radio station could be held liable for its broadcast, which inspired two listeners to drive recklessly toward an announced location, killing another driver in the process.112 The plaintiff in Weirum brought a wrongful death action against a radio station for its promotion that urged people to drive to the lo[*PG173]cation of a disc jockey to receive a prize.113 Two listeners, incited to reach the disc jockey, drove recklessly toward his location and in the process drove another vehicle off the road, killing the driver.114 The Supreme Court of California affirmed the jury’s determination that the defendant radio station was liable under a negligence theory for the “foreseeable results of a broadcast which created an undue risk of harm . . . .”115

Weirum hardly made mention of the First Amendment except to note that it does not erect a barrier to liability.116 Later cases, however, have interpreted Weirum to be a case of “true” incitement, in harmony with Brandenburg. 117 This interpretation highlights the fact that the disc jockey’s directives were in close temporal proximity to the reckless driving that caused decedent’s death.118 In addition, because the disc jockey issued repeated live exhortations to listeners urging them to act in an inherently dangerous manner, the foreseeability of such action on the part of listeners was high.119
And then Charles Manson, was convicted of the murders through the joint-responsibility rule, which makes each member of a conspiracy guilty of crimes committed by fellow conspirators in furtherance of the conspiracy’s objective.
I believe she is culpable, and I for one want her behind bars. Any thoughts are appreciated.


Hillary was Always the Intended Republican Candidate.

Democrats and Republicans, you’ve been had.You should be pissed but you’re complicit role in voting for parties rather than the candidate, their records,votes, sponsored legislation and platform vs actions, you kinda set the stage.
Loyalty to the political parties has created the laziest voters in the world. Most don’t know who the local candidates, judges, and sheriffs etc are or what they stand for. Just vote the party line regardless of the candidates qualifications or ethics. Well here we are.
I will lay out the information, sources and references including support monetarily and in shady business, and that Hillary Clinton was always the intended Republican and Democrat candidate.
Federal filings indicated James Murdoch gave $2,300 to Hillary Clinton’s 2008 presidential campaign. He also donated between $1,000,001 to $5,000,000 to the Clinton Foundation, according to Media Matters. The elder Murdoch, meanwhile, has donated to both Republican and Democratic campaigns, including those of Senate Majority Leader Mitch McConnell, Sen. Lindsey Graham, Sen. Cory Booker and Rep. Steny Hoyer.

Numerous individuals and entities that don’t fit the model for Democratic Party donors have donated to the Clinton Foundation. For instance:

Newsmax Media, Inc. The media company, which has billed itself as operating the “#1 Conservative Site in the Nation,” has made donations to the Clinton Foundation of between $100,001 to $250,000 and between $1,000,001 to $5,000,000.
Donald J. Trump. Trump, a perennial-potential Republican presidential candidate, donated between $100,001 to $250,000 to the foundation.
Richard M. Scaife. The late Scaife, who published the Pittsburgh Tribune-Review, was described as “one of America’s leading funders of conservative causes.” He donated between $250,001 to $500,000 to the foundation.
News Corporation Foundation. The foundation for News Corp., which is headed by Rupert Murdoch and was formerly the parent company of Fox News, donated between $500,001 to $1,000,000 to the foundation.
James R. Murdoch. Murdoch, the co-chief operating officer of Fox News parent company 21st Century Fox and son of Rupert Murdoch, donated between $1,000,001 to $5,000,000.
High-Profile Republicans Have Supported The Clinton Foundation’s Efforts

Many Republican Party-affiliated individuals have attended and supported Clinton Foundation-affiliated events, including the annual Clinton Global Initiative (CGI) meetings. They include former first lady Laura Bush, Fox News founder Rupert Murdoch, former GOP presidential candidate Mitt Romney, Sen. John McCain, New Jersey Gov. Chris Christie, Republican presidential candidate Carly Fiorina, Republican billionaire T. Boone Pickens, former Secretary of State Colin Powell, former Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice, former Bush Treasury secretary Hank Paulson, and former first daughter Barbara Bush.
And finally,  this tidbit :
Now, Hillary Clinton, whose $20 million campaign fund includes large sums from the unions, including Transport Workers Union (TWU) Local 100, will be getting even more money from Murdoch, a veteran union-buster and one of the most prominent advocates of the TWU’s destruction.
Murdoch is if nothing else a good judge of character. He can sniff out a politician who lacks any principles, whose views and votes are for sale. Support from such elements—in Australia, Britain the US and elsewhere—has played a decisive role in his amassing a multibillion-dollar fortune.
Having watched Hillary Clinton vote for and support the Iraq war and curry favor with the Republican right (as she and husband Bill accumulated their own multimillion-dollar fortune), he likes what he sees. Moreover, the Australian-born press baron can read opinion polls as well as anyone else. With Bush’s approval rating falling below the one-third mark, there is ample reason for him to start hedging his political bets.

Trump was never intended to win. Neither were any of clowns in the circus of gop candidates. It was always Hillary Clinton. Watch in the coming weeks, the leaders of the Republican party will throw support to her as they had always planned . The political grandstanding, posturing and pandering is for votes. Then voters are screaming vote blue, vote red, meanwhile they’re spending our green and our soldiers are dead. Not for freedom, but political favors, military contracts, resources that aren’t ours, and to amass and centralize money and power not just in our nation but globally. The Clinton’s were the end of liberal as we knew it. It was the unholy fusion of money, power, and rock star status of political leaders. It was when ideals became a speech while actions became deadly.
Our system is beyond a few cracks, it’s broken. Step 1 in fixing it, stopping the Clinton franchise from another 4 years of scandal that will prevent any move forward. I’m working on the next blog with every criminal scandal of the qualified Democrat candidate.
Sara Ivie
May 6 2016

Picture for You


Let me paint a picture for you
A small town in 92.
Era of apathy and lazy dreams
Hopes laid out in contaminated streams

The pretty lies from parental boomers.
Shhh ignore all the gloomy rumors
They said we could be anything
That’s what a generation of divorce did sing
Too lazy to be informed
As our empire stormed
But Americans got lattes,
And while in the picture of 92,
The Empire left a destruction every which way.
And never planning on those sins that we would pay.

Sara Ivie

May 1, 2016